From my old blog
Jun. 3rd, 2004 01:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
quiregrrlMum rang late this afternoon... Ron made it all the way to the anaesthetic bay this afternoon before they cancelled his surgery for the 4th time in 10 days... last time I spoke to her was at lunchtime as he was being wheeled
out of the room heading for surgery, and then she rings me crying... crying
hard and sobbing my name into the phone and I thought he was dead. I thought
he must have died in surgery and I felt like laughing and hugging myself and
then she told me his surgery was cancelled and they just can't understand
how the hospital can do this and they're going to complain and they're going
to the media and it's just so cruel. My mother in the middle of a drama,
drawing it around her like a favorite coat, baffled by my quiet response, my
cold and callous lack of emotion... my refusal to play. I wish he'd just die
and get it over with.
I know it sounds horrid to say that I want someone dead, I sound like a grade A bitch, but I have hated this man for 20 years, and I just can't pretend to care that he is dying now, not even for mum's sake. This whole situation just makes me so angry...
out of the room heading for surgery, and then she rings me crying... crying
hard and sobbing my name into the phone and I thought he was dead. I thought
he must have died in surgery and I felt like laughing and hugging myself and
then she told me his surgery was cancelled and they just can't understand
how the hospital can do this and they're going to complain and they're going
to the media and it's just so cruel. My mother in the middle of a drama,
drawing it around her like a favorite coat, baffled by my quiet response, my
cold and callous lack of emotion... my refusal to play. I wish he'd just die
and get it over with.
I know it sounds horrid to say that I want someone dead, I sound like a grade A bitch, but I have hated this man for 20 years, and I just can't pretend to care that he is dying now, not even for mum's sake. This whole situation just makes me so angry...
