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[quiregrrl]

I'm sure it comes as little surprise to my friends that I have an overwhelming need to be liked. It bothers me when people don't like me... unless I dislike them to the point of maybe even using the H word... and even then, I kind of want them to still like me, but that's mainly because I'm spiteful and if they like me when I intensely dislike them then my intense dislike will be even more hurtful to them... yeah I know, it's twisted, and as I said, spiteful, and it is really only a very small part of me... mostly if I intensely dislike someone I am just glad if they stay away from me.

But... there's someone who I really think doesn't like me, and with fairly little good reason for not liking me... and we don't have a great deal to do with each other but every now and then we are unavoidably thrown together through shared interests and I do my utmost to be likable and friendly and pleasant, and this person ... just doesn't seem to like me. And it's odd to me how much it bothers me, because apart from the thing that occassionally throws us together we would not even be aware of each others existence... and we actually know fairly little about each other... and I admit that there are things that this person has done that I know of that annoy/anger me, but I think they're probably a decent person on the whole... so why don't they like me???

And more to the point... why do I care so much?????

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[therasca1queen.livejournal.com]

Now, are you sure they don't like you? I get comments occasionally that people have thought I've been stand-offish, or "up myself" or haven't liked someone due to my external presentation at things... basically it's just that I'm massively shy and I don't think I'm at all interesting and I completely suck at small talk...

Maybe this person is just a bit socially awkward too?

[quiregrrl.livejournal.com]

nah, not socially awkward, well, somewhat, but not in the way that manifests as stand-offish or aloof or lacking confidence or being shy... I get that kind of socially awkward coz I am as well, shy and uninteresting and crap at small talk...