quiregrrl | (no subject)

I have a serious case of the tanty-sads today... I feel like I want to just crawl into someone's lap for snuggles and pats and I can't, which makes me want to stamp my foot and throw a tanty coz it's NOT FAIR!! Tanty-sads.

There's nothing particularly terrible that's happened... the weekend of trashiness with two of my favorite peeps was excellent (more on that another time), and I pulled up fine, and was actually quite chipper and perky for most of the week... until mid yesterday afternoon when I got smacked in the head, my mood started to slide downhill from there... but still, that's about the worst of it, and there's good stuff happening to balance it - best-boy arrives back in Aus today which is awesome, and I have plans locked in for 2 definite and 1 maybe dates with the hot redhead over the next week which is awesome, and ... stuff... but yeah, i got smacked in the head and my head still hurts, and there were missed connections and miscommunications last night which meant stuff arounds for two of us and getting home much later than I wanted to be home, and then I slept really badly and had horrid nightmares and kept waking up with head pain and not being able to breath, because i STILL have a cough and feel like I am operating on 50% lung capacity even though it's just a dry throaty cough and there's no hint of lung infection of any kind but I just can't seem to get enough oxygen in me and i feel like I'm choking in the bad way, and I'm so so tired, and I haven't been to choir in about four weeks because I've been sick but I have to go because I'm missing all the new stuff we're learning and if I miss many more rehearsals I'm not going to make the minimum required for the concert and that will suck, so I'm going tonight even though i can't breathe, and even though I forgot my folder this morning, which I had put in a bag with my water bottle so I haven't had that all day either, and I won't have my music for tonight so will have to try and look on with someone else which I hate. And my foot hurts, I have some strange kind of rash on the top of my foot near my toes and my sock rubs it and hurts when I'm walking, and I also seem to be getting a bunion on my pinky toe on the same foot, which rubs painfully on my boot when I'm walking so that whole foot is miserable really. And vinegar tits is in one of her officious organising moods which means she's being extra annoying and just grating on my nerves. And my left kidney hurts. Or thereabouts. For no apparent reason, just a low level ache with the occassional twinge of deeper ow. Plus, itchy patch of eczema on the inside of my left wrist is just annoying.

I just want to cry. And get snuggles. And I can't. I'm so tired, tired and over it.