Fur People
May. 11th, 2005 04:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
quiregrrlWhy is it that bad things always seem to happen in batches??
Most people I know do not see animals as "just" animals, they are little people with fur... my friends and family don't have "pets", they have families that include fur-people... and the loss of these fur-people bites just as deeply as it would to lose a two-legged family member...
C is still mourning the recent loss of his beautiful fur-boy Major, and my heart aches for him...
This afternoon my mum rang me to tell me that she took my canine fur-person, Scamp, to the vets today for a check-up, she's been a bit slow and sleeping a lot of late... but then, she is 13 years old... unfortunately the vet said she has heart failure, and is retaining heaps of excess fluid which is making her lethargic and uncomfortable... without medication she would likely be dead by the middle of next week. He has put her on two kinds of medication and she has to go back on Friday to see if it's helping... I cried on the phone when mum told me... especially as I can't be there, and in reality I probably won't get to see her again before she dies and that breaks my heart... I was there when she was born and even though she has lived with my mum for the last 8 years, she has always been my baby, and a big part of my life until mum moved to Tassie... I hate the thought of her dying, and I hate having to face the reality that she doesn't have much time left...
And then about an hour after I got off the phone from mum, I got a text message from the Goddess in NZ, telling me that her feline fur-person was run over today... her partner found her and buried her and they are both horribly upset... Goddess can't stop crying...
It's not fair... makes me sad...
Most people I know do not see animals as "just" animals, they are little people with fur... my friends and family don't have "pets", they have families that include fur-people... and the loss of these fur-people bites just as deeply as it would to lose a two-legged family member...
C is still mourning the recent loss of his beautiful fur-boy Major, and my heart aches for him...
This afternoon my mum rang me to tell me that she took my canine fur-person, Scamp, to the vets today for a check-up, she's been a bit slow and sleeping a lot of late... but then, she is 13 years old... unfortunately the vet said she has heart failure, and is retaining heaps of excess fluid which is making her lethargic and uncomfortable... without medication she would likely be dead by the middle of next week. He has put her on two kinds of medication and she has to go back on Friday to see if it's helping... I cried on the phone when mum told me... especially as I can't be there, and in reality I probably won't get to see her again before she dies and that breaks my heart... I was there when she was born and even though she has lived with my mum for the last 8 years, she has always been my baby, and a big part of my life until mum moved to Tassie... I hate the thought of her dying, and I hate having to face the reality that she doesn't have much time left...
And then about an hour after I got off the phone from mum, I got a text message from the Goddess in NZ, telling me that her feline fur-person was run over today... her partner found her and buried her and they are both horribly upset... Goddess can't stop crying...
It's not fair... makes me sad...
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Date: 2005-05-11 12:32 pm (UTC)hugs little one
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Date: 2005-05-12 03:06 am (UTC)xoxoxo
Don't make me cry again
Date: 2005-05-12 12:48 am (UTC)i catch glimpses of her in the corner of my eye, standing at the wall waiting for me to get out of the bathroom. but when i turn, she's not really there. then thoughts of her make me remember my beloved George, and even though it's been over 2 years since we lost him, time certainly doesn't heal all wounds.
my boy is so distraught at losing munch that he won't let me go out and do the horses for too long, he wants me near him all the time. we sat on the lounge last night and he had to be touching me the whole time. it's amazing the effect that little inconsequential fur people have on our lives. everyone knows i'm an animalaholic, but they touch everyone.
Princess, my heart goes out to you. It doesn't matter where our fur-people are, or how long since they inhabited our homes, they always live in our hearts. i guess at the moment for me i'm having to try and learn to remember the fabulous munch moments and the joy she brought to us (remember when i told you she was running around on the floor trapped in the cup of my bra! LOL!!!), and believe that i can love my fur-people and still live and cope with their loss.
but that's tough.
and i don't like it.
and it certainly isn't fair.
i love you Princess, and we grieve together.
xxx
Re: Don't make me cry again
Date: 2005-05-12 03:05 am (UTC)I don't have the words to make it any better for you, but you know you and your boy are both in my heart.
I love you and am thinking of you darlingheart, and will be delivering you the biggest squishy rocking soul-soothing hug I can muster in just two weeks... hang in there, and when you see Munch in the corner of your eye, tell her you love her and miss her... fur-person souls linger just like ours do :o)
xoxoxoxoxo
Re: Don't make me cry again
Date: 2005-05-12 03:17 am (UTC)xxx